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About Me Member General Poet Nicholas D.18/Male/Canada Recent Activity Deviant for 2 Years
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I write a lot. It's what I do (aside from making music).

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I'm an avid reader, writer/lyricist, versatile musician/composer, musicologist, and movie watcher. I like to read/write all different kinds of literature, compose/play all different kinds of music (I tend to fuse genres), and spend hours researching music history. I smoke John Player Special cigarettes and would rather not smoke anything else.

I am bored.

Devious Info

  • Current Residence: Toronto
  • Interests: Music, movies, literature, pornography, video games, the internet, etc.
  • Favourite movie: Hitlerjunge Salomon (Europa Europa), Seven Samurai, Blade Runner
  • Favourite band or musician: The Doors, Malice Mizer, Einstürzende Neubauten, KMFDM, Drudkh, Saint Vitus, The Obsessed
  • Favourite genre of music: Gothic Rock, Classical, Industrial, Psychedelic Rock, Jazz, Dooooom Metal, Black Metal, etc.
  • Favourite artist: Salvador Dalí
  • Favourite poet or writer: Voltaire, Nietzsche, Hemingway, Gasparini, George Carlin, William Gibson, Vernor Vinge
  • Favourite photographer: Irving Penn
  • Favourite style of art: Surrealism
  • Operating System: Windows XP Professional
  • MP3 player of choice: iPod (goddamnit)
  • Shell of choice: Windows Shell
  • Wallpaper of choice: Something funny and/or sexy...
  • Skin of choice: Yours!
  • Favourite game: Castlevania: Symphony of the Night
  • Favourite gaming platform: Playstation 1 & 2
  • Favourite cartoon character: Vash the Stampede, Doctor Zoidberg
  • Personal Quote: Take it as it comes.
  • Tools of the Trade: Pen, paper, guitar, computer
  • MSN: dragon_nic@yahoo.com

Liberaté

Tue Mar 31, 2009, 9:28 PM
I'm not much for journals and what-not, but I'm feeling relaxed, albeit sick, and my cat has fallen asleep on my lap. Also, I have been wanting to write about this for a little while.

So I broke up with my girlfriend and ran away from home the day before St. Patrick's day. However, I hate to say "ran away from home", #1 because it sounds very immature and teenager-ish (two of the things which I never felt described me), and #2 because I don't actually view this place as a home.

Anywho, I came back a week later, and ever since then I have been trying to figure out why I came back. At my friend Christian's I had a bed to sleep in, there was food, close friendship, but most of all I felt sane and secure. Here, in this little corner of Queen West, sure, sometimes there's decent food, and I do enjoy my antique bed, but I don't feel sane here. I don't feel secure. There's a whole bunch of reasons of which I won't delve into right now, but the fact is that the longer I stay here with my step-dad the less sane I'll be. Considering it's been like this for practically two years, I haven't been feeling well at all. It's been the most stressful, mind-numbing, disturbing, psychological rollercoaster I've ever been through and probably will ever go through. I've had the most terrible thoughts, the desire to do the most horrible actions, and I don't want them. Not anymore.

I can't function properly when I'm around him. I don't feel I can trust him. I don't think he trusts me.

I have to go to bed now. I've been feeling sick since yesterday, so I need my rest. More to come on this subject, assuming of course I don't forget about this journal for another two years! :P

  • Mood: Yearning
  • Listening to: Alone Again Or by Love
  • Reading: The Spy Who Came in From the Cold by John le Carre
  • Watching: Apocalypse Now
  • Playing: Age of Empires II: The Conquerors
  • Eating: Chicken Salad Sandwich w/ Chicken Noodle Soup
  • Drinking: Orange Juice

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:iconneni-chan:
Thanks so much for the watch :)

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:icon83rd-dream:
No problem! Your work is awesome :thumbsup:
:iconneni-chan:
:)

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:iconminetro:
Hello Nick, it is me Colleen

If you remember.

I shall add you to my watch list

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:iconlegendary-panda:
woah, fantastic stuff. really amazing. i wish i could be poetic like that ^^;
:iconraisin-surgeon:
Niiiiiiiiiiiiick!!!!! Whats happening??? long time no talk! Well, if your ever in the spirit to hang out then don't hesitate to call me! Lets get in touch eh?

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